Trying to be optimistic

For me and others that I know 2010 hasn't been that great of a year. I hope that the new year will bring new opportunities. Goodness knows I'm trying with the blogs and selling make-up. I realized I need to take charge of my destiny. Sitting around and waiting for someone to realize that I'm a great person didn't work last year. Going to make an effort to come out of my shell and get people to notice me. I'm ready to change. I'm ready to evolve. So, at this time next year I hope to be at a place where I'm finally satisfied with my life.

I'm a year older

But I don't think any wiser. I had a nice birthday. I got my hair done and voted. Then when I came home my mom was here and she surprised me with Chinese food and cupcakes. A dieter's dream. Anyway, I don't feel my age. I still feel like that awkward teenage girl. I just can't seem to get it together lately. I thought after a certain age you have all the answers and your life is together and you just roll along until you die. Also, I feel like someone in their early 20s who doesn't know what to do with her life. I decided to try selling makeup again. I'm a Mark Cosmetics rep. I just have to figure out a way to sell exclusively online. I don't want to bother people or hold their hand to make them buy something from me. I just want to direct people to my website. They can e-mail me if they have questions or want a sample. I need more income. I'm so used to having a full-time job and income. This little money I make every 2 weeks is not doing it. I do feel a bit of relief with my decision to not apply for any more social services jobs. It's like a weight has been lifted from me.