I'm a year older

But I don't think any wiser. I had a nice birthday. I got my hair done and voted. Then when I came home my mom was here and she surprised me with Chinese food and cupcakes. A dieter's dream. Anyway, I don't feel my age. I still feel like that awkward teenage girl. I just can't seem to get it together lately. I thought after a certain age you have all the answers and your life is together and you just roll along until you die. Also, I feel like someone in their early 20s who doesn't know what to do with her life. I decided to try selling makeup again. I'm a Mark Cosmetics rep. I just have to figure out a way to sell exclusively online. I don't want to bother people or hold their hand to make them buy something from me. I just want to direct people to my website. They can e-mail me if they have questions or want a sample. I need more income. I'm so used to having a full-time job and income. This little money I make every 2 weeks is not doing it. I do feel a bit of relief with my decision to not apply for any more social services jobs. It's like a weight has been lifted from me.

My Son's Poem

My son is a wonderful artist. He loves to draw and paint. Now he's getting into poetry. Here's his first poem: Hot, hot people are hot. The whole town is hot, but when it's raining it's cool, but right now it's hot. His class are studying poetry and he's really excited about it. He wanted me to share the poem with you.

That was sort of a workout

I haven't been working out like I said I would. Yesterday I was crazy busy with work and then I had to pick the kids up and take my son to his acting class. I was tired, so tired by the end of the day. And because I walked everywhere my legs were killing me. Today I tried to work out. Kept getting phone calls and then an e-mail from my supervisor asking me about a report. So, of course I can't just let that go until after my workout. Look up the info and respond. Then I get a call from out of the blue from a mom I met in the summer. Her son was in Theatre Camp with my son. She was calling to see if we liked the books she sold to us and if we wanted any more. I asked her to send us a link to her website. We then tentatively scheduled a play date for 11/12. It's still in the back of my mind. What to do with my life? It's always there. Telling me I'm not doing enough. Then why am I so tired?!

So Glad Today Is Over

I was so busy today. I had to cover for someone who didn't do their stores last week. My Supervisor sends out an e-mail asking for help Sunday night. Why didn't she know the stores weren't done until then? That's my question. Anyway, the store took a lot longer than I thought it would, but I got everything done that I wanted to. Then I had to pick up the kids from school. Take my son to acting class. Then I went to CVS with my daughter to pick up one thing. I end up buying a fairy princess costume. It's cute and the skirt lights up. We are finally home and I'm cooking dinner. I will probably crash during Hoarders;-) No energy to do any of the workouts I planned so far for this week.

I Officially Give Up

You can quote me on this. I officially give up looking for a social services job. My career in social services is over. Actually the last time I had a social services job in 2005 is when it ended. I went for an interview for a part-time job in a hole in the wall church. You know what?! I didn't get it. I've had it. I can't do this anymore. I have to find something else to do with my life. But what?! I worked in social services from 1995-2005. That was my career. Moving to England with my DH for 2 years killed it. May my career in social services RIP. I won't be sending out any more resumes.

There are things I want to do, but it costs money. DH is not happy with his job and he wants to leave, but can't. If he happens to lose his job we would need that money. Meanwhile I have bills to pay and I can barely cover them from what I make at my part-time job. And I find out on Thursday that one of the stores I collect every week will be closing 11/10/10. That will be at least 2-3 hours from my little,tinny, tiny check. My supervisor will hopefully get me another store.

I just need a break. Something, anything.

What Happens To Your Facebook Page When You Die?

It's something to think about. Do you think it's automatically deleted? Not so fast! You need to make your final wishes known. That's why you should go to Otrib and create a digital estate with their Final Wishes Service. Leave your Facebook page to someone you trust and the best thing about it...it's free. It will let friends and loved ones know of your passing and will provide a digital memorial service. So, go to Otrib right now. It's never too early.

I love Fall

Today was a great Fall day. It rained this morning and I got drenched, but when I got home I was so happy to be in my warm home. It was raining and more leaves were falling off the trees. I just feel all cozy when it's gray and raining outside. I did a good deed today. It was pouring and I saw a familiar face standing under an doorway trying to stay out of the rain. She's the mom of a little girl who goes to my daughter's school. My son used to go there and he was in the same class with her daughter. It's a private school so we couldn't afford to send them both there. So, last year we put our son in public school. Anyway, we talked for a while. I gave her information about my son's school and then said goodbye. Well, when I got inside I could see her still standing on the corner and I felt bad. So, I got into my car and drove to the corner where she was standing. I offered her a ride home. She just asked me to take her to the El. I felt good after that. I don't like to drive in the rain, but she's so nice and I would have felt really guilty if I hadn't.

I did work out today. As much as I wanted to sleep all day I didn't. I did the Amy Bento All Pump Extreme and Billy Blanks Jr. Cardio Fit. Trying to do at least 280 minutes of cardio. I heard that you need to do that much a week to lose weight.